~The E¢lipse Portλl~ Inside D's Mind

Sneak peak to new address

2007-06-23T23:10:00.001+08:00

Here, i present to u a sneak peak to my new address.

keyword: century

KOP ITO SBT UGO OL. KOC DSM

wonder wat those r? haha, merely an encrypted n scrambled address.

well, i reviewed my address right? haha, happy guessin.

results will b launched on sept. stay tuned.

Dragonboat fest?

2007-06-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

Havent been bloggin for quite some time as I didn't had the mood to till i manage to make my secret code which hides my new blog address...

Oh well, its currently the hols. 1st wk was spent in sentosa. After which, i took some time off to prepare for my grading.

Had my grading on Sunday. Dun wanna mention much about it. Hopefully I get my blue gold stripes on this fri.
Speaking about Friday, I have a briefin on SP's openhouse at 2. N coincidently, it falls on the same time as my java mock exam...

School's startin to get into my nerves. Worryin abt too many stuff... Exams, CIP...etc...

Hmm... Today's supposed to b e dragonboat fest... I only ate a dumpling despite the fact that I used to be able to gobble up to 4 of those glutinous rice dumplings at a go...

Well, that sure triggered some memories... I remembered abt how I would make a fuss arnd this time of the year. If I missed a dumpling then, I would weep into bitterness...
Time had changed... I dun care much about dumplings now for that familiar unique taste that I used to had is now gone... I had lost interest in dumplings.
For... there's only one special and perhaps gone forever...dumpling... which I would only eat. No amount can ever replace that...

The world revolves, time nvr stops flowing...

2007-05-27T17:50:00.000+08:00

In a blink of an eye... Its gonna be June once more.
People come into your life and then out e next moment.
Fate between humans is twisted in such a ridiculous way. Those that clicked, their paths entwined and at e very end, it splits...

Spent e-learning wk in a nt so productive way...
I got my laptop fixed on wednesday.
Spent my thursday clearing most of the e-learning assignments.
Didn't catch my winks at night juz to make sure i accomplish my COS project on Fri,5pm. Had onli a mere short amount of inadequate rest.
On fri, I had a splittin headache at night... I wanted to rest my soul onto the door of dreams bt e pain kept me awoke...
Popped 2 pills and they didn't really worked... Hence, i endured the torment till dawn where e pain gradually disappeared.

Sat, e pain lives on to haunt me... Took a quick nap before i went to Jurong East Entertainment centre to watch a movie with a dear friend. After which, took e bus back with her as it was on e way to grandpa's house. Didn't had a decent dinner...

Sun, e headache slowly returns to haunt me... Tis time, wif a nemesis known as e sore throat...

Gettin ill... feelin down... gettin stressed.

Most of my friends are probably having their hols now, whereas i have to endure some tribulations...

A lil look on my bz wk:
mon-nothin much...
tues-maths project n maths quiz?
wed-java quiz?,class reps dialog session,self portfolio briefin, tennis(mayb i will skip) n SMIT club meetin
thurs-ends really late... would consider possibility of tbcm quiz...
fri-dun wanna talk much... probably e last day i can prep up for aikido mock gradin
sat-archery then aikido once more?
sun-mock gradin

my 3 projects are drainin my life source... tbcm, cd n maths...

till then, i shall disappear into the wind...

Recap...after a long leave

2007-05-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

Yes, my blogskin ver2.1 is finally done... Spent half a day's work on it...=P
I finally have the motivation to blog after e blank spot of this blog is filled up.
Perhaps today I will b entering in a really LOOOOnnGG post due to my long period of absence.

Lets start with events that happened way past back...
Friday, can't rmb e date. Met up wif 2 friends who were keen to learn aikido.Ok, they didn't quite know me neither do I in person.Ahh... Juz remembered. It was e last fri of april, thus we had weapons class. Well, back to how i met them. I was waitin on e couch at cdans playin a lil game of dota (smashin e AIs) to kill time.
Then, 2 gals came in... (them). I could tell that they were e ones tat I was supposed to meet frm e sgcafe forum. Y? coz i saw them lookin at e information for aikido. They then went up to e next lvl thru e lift. However, they didn't know tat it doesn't lead to e multi-purpose hall. After a while of 'fake ignorance', I couldn't help bursting to laughter when I walked past them which blew my cover.
After which, I showed them where to get dinner and then to e multi-purpose hall.
Aikido was ok at e start. Same boring routine... Then came weapons class... Apparently I used too much strength on my attk. Causing many dents on Derek's bokken.

Saturday, I had tennis camp. Played lame games in a grp n owned many grps. Dun wanna elaborate much or my fingers will burn off due to e friction generated by too much typing. Quick summary, gt 2nd place n nice sun tan.
Didn't had archery as e boards were infested wif termites.

E weeks went by wif e usual boring routine...
Wednesday, I had some tennis trainin... Which turned out bad... I used too much strength. I find myself more suited to badminton.

Saturday, had first archery lesson. Nice... It was fun and I got e hang of it after accumulating some bruises frm e bow string. After which I played tennis with Yang which lead to my sprained wrist.

E following week, i got an wrist guard at a discounted price thks to Yang's membership card.
Wednesday, I was supposed to have tennis. Bt be4 tat, i went on to play badminton despite my wrist condition. It was great... flexing those ultra light weight racquets.In e end, i skipped tennis thks to e shock i recieved on my wrist. Bt misfortune soon befall upon me one after another... My Fujitsu laptop crashed...

Went on survivin e next few days w/o a laptop...

Nearly dead...
Life's diff w/o technology.

Saturday, Denyse's early bday celebration. Be4 tat, i had archery. I m really gettin better at tat. Scored a bulleyes and my shots were gettin accurate. My bruises were lesser. Then went to FUnan to send my laptop for repairs.
Spent e rest of e day playin dota n some lame WC edited games wif my godbrothers...
I feel a lil guilty abt not attendin to e guests. Bt... I m a lil phobic when it comes to crowds...

Sunday, Mother's Day.
Brought mom to Jack's place for dinner. Sadly, e dinner was terrible. Presentation sucks... all e food were dull in color n e veggies r kinda Asian...Bt e escargots were ok. Then went taka... walked arnd for hrs be4 she happily agreed to go home.

Monday, no sign of laptop... My Asus laptop could hardly cope... Thks to its single processor, it hung quite often during Java... My wrist's better. Lesser pain bt feels strangely light n flexible.

Alrite... tats about it folks. Happy now?

Is there really a rainbow after e storm?

2007-04-20T17:48:00.000+08:00

Had a rough start... well, finally adapting to poly life. bt tis is juz a minor fraction of e pie which i had juz tasted. Had things rough on wednesday. Rather an unlucky day for me. Couldn't access net in sch, even e it helpdesk can't restore it... Had trouble in java class thanks to e lack of net use. Luckily, thks to my base which i acquired in Informatics, I am able to predict how to write e script and thus caught up in time.
After sch, went to IMM with yang. Waited 1/2 hr for him as he went back home at e station. Halfway, it rained... N we were caught in it. Had a budget lunch...
After which, got my tennis racket frm world of sports which sold it at a discounted price of 80.
Went back home... onli to find tat no1's in n i dun have my keys. Thus, i got locked out for 3hrs plus...

Thursday,
things were better. e net prob was solved... they had to reset e system...
got a petty gain, some1 who wanted a snack frm e vending machine apparently was down on luck... e snack was stucked halfway. so, i placed a dollar in and gt 2 snacks...mwahaha...
went home late...

Fri,
class ended earlier than usual. bt at least it was fruitful. I got to know my classmates better. Was made e assistant class rep thks to Andre e class rep, who recommended me. thks andre!

nothing much then... gonna have aikido soon. bloggin is a method for me to kill time till dinner. hence i shall stop here n go for dinner...

Shinjutsu- e art of e heart

2007-04-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

School finally started after a tremendous long wait.

On e first day, I met up with Kalson (whose studying DIT) at e mrt station before we set off for e orientation.
Thks to my habit of being ridiculously early, we ended up waiting for a really long time after our KFC lunch. Somehow, i didn't had an appetite despite the fact that i forgo breakfast. Perhaps I was burning with enthusiasm and couldn't wait to explore the whole sch.
After which, we got separated into our classes. DISM was called out first, hence i entered e auditorium. Dratz... Was somewhat disappointed... We only had arnd 5girls? tat would make a ratio of boys:girls at 7:1. Haiz... will tis b how i will b spendin e rest of my youth?
At e auditorium, i was surrounded by ppl whom i didn't know. Bt somehow later, i broke e ice by startin a conversation. Tats how i got to know 3 guys, Yang,Darren and Justin. Soon after, we endured hrs of mindless talks... nt much of a gd orientation n didn't know much of e navigations of e sch nor my prospective classmates...

2nd day, had SPICE (sp's infocomm computing environment) trainin, which i somehow ended up playing lame flash games on Derrick's blog. (ok... they r nt lame, juz addictive).After which, we sampled e 'wonderful' canteen food... n waited to nought when we realised tat e SMIT activities were cancelled and instead gt a tour around campus wif Bastian.

3rd day, nothin much...lazed at home...

4th day, aka FLAG DAY. Had insomia e night before. It was abt 2am when i finally gt aslp. Woke up at 5.30am juz to travel to Braddell to sell flags to raise funds for President's challenge.
Reached Braddell, hardly any1 was there except ppl frm other courses. Met up wif Justin and we found a hotspot where e crowds were gushing like waterfalls. Had to deal wif some creeps tat tried sabotaging us...
Approx arnd 10plus. E crowds died out... So we went to toa payoh. Bl**dy hell! Its ***m overcrowded tat e others seem to b a bunch of irritating cockroaches... Got taunted by "Mr Wong" who seemed to b doing well. ****, i nearly wanted to give him a nice gd olde fashion punch...
Ended up scoutin e area till we gave up n decided to go Funan.
Went Funan and same bl**dy situation... So we walked all e way to Chinatown somehow, hopin tat those cockroaches won't b there... bt we were wrong...e streets seem to b infested by plagues of students...
Found a gd spot bt was somehow sabotaged byh a bunch of creeps who refused to budge and tried to vie for out territory.
Gave up after a few hrs, then had lunch. After which, we went to Chinatown square where no1 was there. Gt an extremely gd spot! Chased some idiots who came late away.
After a gruelling 8hrs, we went back to SP to submit our cans. In total, i onli raised 49.15...

Fri, nothin much. Had aikido lessons. This round was diff. James Sensei was on mc, so chief instructor, Phillip Lee Sensei took over. WOW, we were stressed bt i muz admit his lesson was meaningful. I learnt alot frm his great teachin. However, thks to ytd's insomia combined wif e gruellin walk n standin in e sun, i wasn't in top form today and sort of messed up a lil.
Jeannine passed me a copy of Jss's Voices. (damn, i hate tat book, e editors nvr bothered to ask for my compositions...)
I had a hell of a time laughin at e pathetic Zhenyu's writings abt his love. Somehow, it was obvious tat he called himself Ray. F*cking bast*rd... I dun believe tat they even published something which he wrote on a piece of paper based on request. How can e sch encourage tis kinda unhealthy love? Well, mr cassanova, (whose name was spelt wrongly as zheng yu) was pathetic enough to go and date e lower sec lvls as he failed to at e upper sec lvls...

Well, nothing much left, my head is almost empty wif e contents poured out.
Hmm... next wk's cca drive, i m gonna register for archery (Justin n Darren r also joinin...)n tennis (whom, i promised to join wif some1).

2007-04-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

Quick update...
After a freakin long time of not writing.
Left Informatics, got booted out... Went back for a day's lesson on javascript. (courtesy of 'kiwy')
(rmb, java n javascript r diff...)

Finally completed e tiresome SP enrolment procedures... currently awaiting to start sch.
Bought a Fujitsu laptop wif specs stated below for 2.2k:
2.0ghz dual core processor
256mb radeon x1400 graphics card
1gb RAM
2.5kg (wtf?!...)

I realised tat microsoft updates r rather troublesome. Some of them clashed wif other programmes, causing me to self-remedy thru e help of google.

Currently halted tkd. wait till i adjust to sch life be4 i resume. Hopefully can make it to gradin in may.

Taking up aikido in SP. wat does tis means? m i supposed to wear a dumb white belt n somehow 'amaze' my 'snrs' by performing blue gold stances perfectly?
n akd starts at 5pm every mon where my lessons end at 5pm exactly n may b prone to extensions. so m i supposed to run down e stupid hill to foodcourt 5 in record time?

Also taking up archery...

Awakened frm a frozen slumber...

2007-03-18T15:26:00.000+08:00

Yes...yes... i know its a long time since i updated.
Well, wasn't in much of a mood to blog thanks to some idiot who forgot my job application,made me waited for 1 whole week only to hear a ,''Sorry, we forgot.'' and to miss my aikido blue gold grading. Oh well, I juz have to wait till june then.

Taken up taekwondo wif jiayi. He made me suffer... as he couldn't stretch his legs up high. Its alrite if he can't stretch... Bt it also implicated me as I had to remain in a horse stance postition while he stretches... Thankfully, he's staying on. Made a promise that we were to take e gradin during may... Bt, i should b alrite wif sufficient practice n of course... SLEEP!

Got my first choice, DISM (Diploma in Infocomm Security Management) thats supposed to have a cutoff point of 14 points. Lucky i didn't put business studies first or i would had gotten in automatically. Spent 2 days running down to SP to settle e enrolment. On top of that, I got Mr Hoe to write me a testimonial by Fri, which he apparently did a fantastic job. If I got the SP scholarship, credits should go to him.

Hmm... I placed archery as my choice of cca. Hope its gonna b ez. Trainins r on sat n sun.

Well, mental block again... I suddenly dun feel like writin. Hence, i shall stop here.

Major Update

2007-03-01T12:40:00.000+08:00

2wks ago, nothing significant happened. Except that i got to change my phone. At last... to somethg more decent. A Sony K800i... At least now i won't have e excuse nt to take pictures at memorable events.

Last week, i missed out 1 whole wk of sch thks to the CNY holidays. I tot that it was a good opportunity for me to catch up on my games. However, was wrong... There was a string of visitors who came to my house for dinner and it was rather quite inconvienient for me to continue my daily activities. My gym sessions nearly had to be cancelled thks to them. Bought myself 'elite' training gloves frm Nike, there goes 1 wk's worth of money. Its alrite if my activities get cancelled, however, some of them are really a pain in the arse, complaining abt every single thing rather than t b grateful for e effort my mum put in. I couldn't give a d@m* on one particular night that i left them alone and took refuge in my room.

Saturday, I went to my uncle's housewarming for awhile. After which, i set off to meet some old friends at Mrs yeoh's house. It was rather cosy there. However, i was sort of disappointed with the poor 'attendence'. Mrs Yeoh was rather very hospitable and was a gd host. Thru interactions , we learnt about some of her life experiences and how some of us are getting by. We also found out that she had finally retired. Somehow, i could feel that she was somewhat lonely. Hencefore, I decided to return n visit her wif Ying Quan, for a lil 'workshop' on Italian cooking which she is learning during June.

This week, i hardly went to gym. Nothing much to comment except tat as usual, i skipped sch. Only intendin to return tis fri. It seems like I am a wanted fugitive...

Wednesday, I went visiting to my mum's fren's. It was dreadful thks to the freak weather. I was down wif a cold as i endured it frm morning till 7pm, where we finally got home...

Thursday, having gym today... at las...

Friday, having gym too, before Aikido. Rather stressed... Gradings rather early, during next month. Should i pia or not? Well, y not? I intend to attain brwn bet by end of tis yr. A couple of additional training at other dojos oughta help me n thks to gym, my stamina and strength had somewhat improved.

Saturday, going to Mr Lee's house. Hope to c lots of ppl... Then having dinner with maternal sector, juz my grandma n uncle.

Sunday, reunion dinner wif paternal sector.

My existence

2007-02-18T16:23:00.000+08:00

Juz a minor update to show my existence. Did a bit of changes. juz minor ones...
Well, i will write a decent entry once i feel like it. I m still abit affected by my results tat were below my expectations.
I will b back on the 6th March, which is the day my JAE results will b revealed.

Quick Update

2007-01-29T13:49:00.000+08:00

Well, added new anime section. Stil in Informatics, 'enjoyin' my last few days. Still undergoin gym, 1 more session. On job hunt... Life's still lonely n boring...

Empty Void...

2007-01-23T01:27:00.000+08:00

Its been a rather long time lapse since I last blogged. But wat's e use? Hardly any1 visits...
Life as usual has been an endless vicious cycle of torment. I have tis kind of a feeling that every1 seemed to had nearly disappeared...
After several considerations, I have to conclude that I must leave e Informatics School. It will therefore remain as a fallback if i fail to make it.
I dun wanna talk much bout school for now. However, it is as usual, boring... Almost everything tat i needed to know was built in naturally in me. I am now counting the days tat i left in e sch. If the results comes out on the 5th, i would most probably have 8-9 days left. After which, i gotta go out and work...
I recently got back into playin magic. Wow.Apparently, I m gettin rusty as my so called 'elite' decks are startin to have some issues... Lent WC my elfish mischief deck. Only to find out tat he didn't win... Tis was another blow... Another score to disappointments and initiate me into thinking whether i m gettin useless...
Next, I had gym sessions as usual. Except tat last wk's trainin was unique, i had to do some heavy work, liftin 5kg dumbells on a bench... It was more strenous. E pain suffered was helish. I was robbed of my vitality and spirit... I felt tired easily thanks to the aching muscles tat sap my strength... Thankfully I wasn't tat bad on Fri's aikido class. Although it made e pain worst...
to conclude... i really dunno wat to say...
except tat...
...

Blues...

2007-01-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

Its been around 2 wks since i started class in Informatics. As usual, I am still the youngest. I still don't feel quite right in place. Its a relaxed environment. But somehow I am starting to hate it.
I want a challenge.
I don't wanna do stuff which are of low complexity yet others had a hard time struggling with it.
Somehow, I am kinda attracted by SP's diploma plus program, which allows me to attain 2 diplomas if I score well for my O lvls.

Dad had his operation to remove pus from his rectum. He's currently ok now, bt he still has a lil difficulty sittin independently without a float for a support.

I m startin to feel lost or rather hollow within. I crave for friends but I feel I am e the wrong place...

This Thurs will be my 3rd gym session with Jiayi. Apparently my flexibility is improving. It won't be long before i can start taking up taekwondo at last.
However, I feel that I m beginning to suck at Aikido after being isolated from it during my Os and having a holiday in Korea.

Therefore, I have to find a new meaning in life. Perhaps being in a poly, knowing more ppl in my age grp would do me some good. I dun wanna b stucked in a all guys class. Not used to it... After spendin almost all my life in mixed schools.

Next month, when the results are out, I will have no where to go. I will have to leave Informatics or pay e full sum to continue the course. Well, it will be a gd time for me to earn so money to buy a gd desktop and some decent anti-virus software.

The Start of Life, once more...

2007-01-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, the first day I entered Informatics. E environment was shockin. There are many ppl of diff nationality. E Nigerians , no offence... Seem rather huge n scary. Haiz... so far no gals in e class... Boring...
Made friends with Seth n Gary, both studyin IDIT (International Diploma in Information Technology). My course, IDNC (International Diploma in Networkin and Cybersecurity), apparently had e same modules with them. However, e service was bad... for 2 days, my name was not on e list. We learnt bout e computer which was rather dry n slow...

Thursday, did Java programmin. Kinda fun. Java is a OS developed by Sun Microsystems in Indonesia by a rather brilliant guy who was drinkin coffee n ponderin over e complexity of C++ programmin. I was e youngest student so far. However, I did not have any difficulties. In fact, I had to help my older counterparts catch up in class.

Night falls, I went to e gym with my cous Jiayi. We had fitness analysis today. ... dun wanna talk much... except tat i m out of shape. We did e cardio test, where we were supposed to cycle 1km in less then 5mins. I clocked 2.01mins... Legs were basically flyin... Couldn't feel my legs after e test...

Well then, I m tired. Tml I have another session on information processin....
Till then, stay tuned for updates...

A New Year, My resolve...

2007-01-02T03:02:00.000+08:00

2007 came by in a flash. I hope tat my luck would turn for e better tis yr. Here are my resolutions:
1) Get a brown belt for aikido at e end of tis yr
2) Start taekwondo
3) Study hard and research
4) Go to gym
4a) Fat-burner session
4b)Stamina
4c) Bulk n mass
5) to try to open up

Ok, juz a lil highlight on my life. I am currently on a DSA programme by Informatics Computer School located at science centre road. I will be taking a trial course on cybersecurity n networkin till I get my o lvl results. If i get 9pts or below, perhaps i will change to a U. If i get juz nice to go to a poly, I may change if I do not like my current environment.
However, e programme there is to allow me to grad at age19.
year1, diploma
year2, advanced diploma
year3, final yr in U
In addition I will recieve 3 certs frm e highly conveted EC council, certifyin tat i will be a certified ethnical hacker.

However, I m kinda worried on how my new life would b. I m kinda afraid. E ppl who i will most probably meet are foreign students. I m really envious of those who go to jcs with lots of their frens.

Well then, to forget to lessen e pain? or to rmb, bt onli to stand at a side enviously n deprived?
~~~

Sinking deeper...

2006-12-29T14:01:00.000+08:00

A quick summary of wateva happened during e jss bbq. Went there early, paid 8 bucks n sat down, lookin at e others sloggin away at e preparations. Felt bored... Decided to help Jingwei wif the squids. Got all down n filthy. Bt squids dun actually smelt tat bad.
Next, helped with the drinks. Unfortunately, halfway it rained, so we had bbq indoors. Had a tough time startin e pits with izzat, desmond n zhi chiaw... n others. Was bored again... looked for stuff to do. Noticed tat e drinks dispenser was leakin badly due to a hole or crack at e bottom. It was a creatin a bloody mess. A bowl was placed under it to collect e leakin liquid. Hence, i walked around once more, thinking of a solution to challenge myself out of boredom. My eyes caught sight of a plastic bag. TING! A stupid idea tat really worked came to my mind. tat was to wrapped e plastic bag around e dispenser to control e flood n mess. Hence, with e help of alan n yiqing, we gt e job done. I finally realised tat i lacked exercise. Stamina failed badly as I lifted e heavy dispenser...
Ok, juz a quick conclusion on e fun bits. Had steamboat n bbq! E fun part of bbq was e roastin of apples, which tasted soft n yummy like apple pie. People thought i was insane. However, zhi chiaw followed me eventually. haha. Next, i tot of a culinary breakthrough... Chocolate chicken wings!!! However, it was kinda burnt. So it became a carbon chicken wing...(although e unburnt parts tasted rather quite fragrant.. :x) Mrs Tong and Ms Chan somehow kept laughin at e sight of me runnin through n fro... tryin to roast marshmellows n apples.

Next, we come to thursday. I got a sms frm zhi chiaw to watch a movie. Hence, we watched night in e museum starrin comedy powerhouse Ben Stiller. It was e first time I watched a movie with a large group of frens. However, there was kinda an invisible barrier. They were all councillors and I found it a bit hard to open up. There was hardly any common topic as I kept quiet most of e time.
Saw a familiar face while walkin around... lookin for dinner which apparently was nt fufilled... None other than my pri sch fren, Jia Huey who perhaps was in a dazed tat she couldn't recognised me n desmond until i muttered...,''haiz... know u for so long yet u still can't recognise us...'' Haha, she was walkin behind of us n didn't noticed... Desmond even said tat we saw her 3 times while walkin about.

Ok then... enough of the glibberish. Every night, as e darkness falls, blanketin e orange ball of fire, I had troubles fallin asleep, which led to my late night sleepin habits. Each time I rest my head on my pillow, thoughts would pour in. I would wonder at wat I had accomplished n e various events tat happened.
I would sometimes shed tears as I felt e failure to do anythg right. I can't accomplished many things. Although drawin n paintin used to be my forte, I was basically detioratin... I could no longer improve. Even e passionate flames for learnin IT stuff on my own is startin to die out. I looked back at my clumsiness, lack of confidence to communicate effectively. Up to now, I still havent got a job... I dunno how to begin... I nid some1 to guide me... I want to improve bt i m simply too lost without proper guidance. Each time my relatives would speak in my dialect, I would feel a sense of shame. I had not mastered e language nor able to speak properly. I could onli guess their meanins. My dad did not impart the language to me. He onli taught me how to count in dialect when i was young... Even e art of taekwondo was not being taught to me despite his 3rd dan n my repeatitive pleadin... I m currently feelin like a piece of unpolished ugly gemstone tat is deappreciated. I do not have e proper tools to polish me and let me shine to stretch my potentials. I abhor e lack of attention or seriousness rendered. My life is beginnin to feel like trash...

Sadness Within

2006-12-27T03:30:00.000+08:00

At around a few more hours, i will b goin back to sch for bbq. Hopefully it doesn't rain...
Life's been kinda tough. Tis holiday, I had my allowance frozen and had been nagged at umpteen times to look for a job or a course.
2006 is about to end in a couple more of days. Tis yr's x'mas was pathethic. Didn't had a taste of turkey and wasn't as joyous nor the festive mood could be felt. Had 4 presents.
Wallet(jiahao), 2GB card for psp (jiayi), samurai warriors+ $100 (frm godma, who made things better, she's so generous...) and a creative zen v (uncle).
Perhaps its due to e fact that e woman who made e family united isn't arnd anymore.
Thinking back to 2006, I feel tat it seems to be an accursed year. I lost someone dearest, had couple of tough struggles with studies, didn't had a proper joyous celebration for events. I feel sad as I left JSS. Well, its a conglomeration of feelings, both sad n a lil satisfaction. E satisfaction part as in i dun get to see some ppl. I could basically say, ''Hasta la vista , Baby!''.
E sad part is that I think I m kinda a failure in life. Up to date, I doubt I have many true friends. It all seems to be a dream. Time reveals itself and came to the conclusion tat I dun even have a friend who has e same common interest and e kind which I could trust and share my problems with. All those current friends seem to b stagnant at a certain stage, to a lvl of onli acquintance.
Each time I peek into e blogs of others, each time I see thm having fun wif other frens, a burning sensation of jealousy flares up. Sadness or perhaps loneliness engulfs my heart. I know tat despite writin so much here, hardly any1 would read or understand me.
Perhaps its e introvert nature built in me...
I juz can't help feelin depressed...
Next yr, when my frens get to go to JC, i could onli helplessly stay aside enviously.
I am afraid of my new sch. I m afraid of poly life if i were to get one.
A caged bird tat is caged for too long can no longer adapt to the vicious outside world when it is released. It cannot adapt smoothly and hence e shock will kill it...
Tats enough for now...
TIll then, Happy New Year to all.

Anew

2006-12-21T02:29:00.000+08:00

Haha... was kinda lazy to update since after my trip. Well, i dun wanna blah so much about my trip. Juz for those animal lovers, e octopus whose leg i bit off will regrow it... Its kinda recycled. E tentacles were still moving as i swallowed it. It tickles my throat, quite a fun sensation. Lucky i didn't post my mum's pic. E tentacle got into her nose... HAHAHA!!!
Well, nothin much for now. Juz lazing around n gettin chided for not lookin for a job. Currently tutorin sis 2X a wk for 100 bucks per month. Next week e sch is gonna build a bbq pit... N wth!!! 8bucks...

2006-12-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

juz a lil trial of bloggin wif a psp. looks like its possible. however, findin a wiifi connection in korea mayb a headache. well,my flight is gonna take place tml at 1045pm. its gona b a long flight...

2006-11-26T01:50:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i last updated. Well, tis time I had finally modified a skin for my own which I used the previous skin for a base. Lately, e holidays were rather boring. E same routine happens on as e days pass by.
Recently, I finally understood what it is like when u dun cherish something, one day when it vanishes, you will start missing it. Its painful once u realised how important it was to u.
Next week, on e 2nd, i will be flying off to Korea till the 9th. I wonder what type of new experiences I will get. From what I know, its gonna be -5 degrees. Hence, my jacket weighs kilos. Hopefully, I can bring my laptop over. I feel lost and lonely w/o my laptop. It connects me to the world; or rather, the people who I know n care for, or vice versa.
A quick update on wat's going on lately. Well, basically I had been tryin to race against time to lvl up my cleric in maple to a priest, hence I literally spend hrs on e com firing away at e keyboards. Despite so, I also trained my body to keep me active. For now, I m practising on leg stretches. Y m I stretchin? It is to make my body flexible, only to fufill e requirement that my dad set for me so that he can teach me e basics of Taekwondo. I am not going for any of those classes until i get my basics right be4 he allows me to learn. He expects me to do perhaps a triple jump? (as in the belts).
Hahaha... well, life's bored. I hate to admit this, bt I suddenly missed school. I hardly chat verbally to any1 nowadays...
Alrite, tat's all for now...

2006-11-10T12:16:00.000+08:00

Got a lil bored while downloading eps of death note e anime. Therefore, i came here to write a lil. I really mean lil... Basically, what's gonna happen soon are my 2 weeks of holiday in Dec and of course, my official freedom to go on the net. Been missing out levels of trainin for msea. This blogskin is gotta go, I am using it for a base for my new one which I will make after gettin some pics in Korea. I will be taking down videos if my mum agrees to buy me a 3-4megapixels worth of a DV cam, hopefully sony... Until then, its plain old boredom...

Back at last

2006-10-22T01:25:00.000+08:00

I decided, I wasn't cut out for blog skinning after all. Meanwhile, i will make do wif tis.
Ain't got much to write. Will post Deepavali photos at Devi's place once its done.
Other then tat, i won't b bloggin till DEC.

One more day to end of prelims...

2006-09-19T17:07:00.000+08:00

Haven't been feeling well for the past few days... My internal body systems feel seethingly hot... Too much heatiness...Been getting headaches after staring on my pile of books while studying... Well, its gonna end... As usual, when something ends, its the beginning of another. Kinda worried about the results...

Last Thursday was supposed to be a happy day... Tat's my bday.
Here's a quick list of those who wished me happy birthday according to order of sequence:
yiqing (couple of mins past mid'nite)
stella (while i was slpin... the sms woke me up)
devi (2plus... i was slpin like a log at tat time...)
zhi chiaw ( during assembly)
siti (entrance to exams)
... (no1 else? sobs...)
Qingpei (Didn't shake her hand on purpose... Wanna rebel!)
Fadilah n adilla ( double LAs...) ( Fad had e cheek to whack me 16times e next day)

Presents list:
Mum, Grandma (maternal) and Godma --- $$$
Yi Qing and Zhi Chiaw- T-shirt (1st present i ever recieved frm frens for my whole 16 yrs)
Mum's fren - T-shirt
Cousin Jia Hao- T-shirt again!!!
Stella - a hand-drawn cake on msn... supposingly to make up for my cakeless bday.
School- 2 devastatingly hard tests
Time- panda eyes

Well, my bday was kinda insignificant. No cake no celebrations till Sat where i got a cake bt no singing due to traditional reasons... A cake which most of my cousins naturally dislike...

tml i m gonna c e forbidden city... However, i seldom travelled alone... Well, i m gonna ride e mrt n somehow get lost... Hahahah...

Y is it that there is no fri'ckin marking day?!!!!
(exhausted due to over-reaction n thus collapsed... can't write more...)

Holiday Blues...

2006-09-06T13:23:00.000+08:00

Time seems to be passing real quick. Be4 i know it, the holidays are almost gone. For the past few days, I haven't been putting in much efforts to prepare for my prelims. Well, my tuesday is up, aka my last day of gaming. Tis wednesday onwards, I am gonna go on full gear. I intend to clear my bio and humanes subjects within the next few days.For the past few days, I had been playin DotA and watching the Law Of Ueki (A funny anime with action packed into a single package). Well, at least I cleared up my desk and sorted out SOME of the worksheets.

Hmm... I don't know whether anything interesting will happen the next few days. Apparently, next week is my birthday and yet I won't have a chance to celebrate it as it clashes with the prelims. Till then, I hope to complete my new blogskin. I doubt I will be having a cake or a good dinner this year. Who cares? I consider myself quite fortunate enough that I had at least celebrated my previous birthdays compared to the less fortunate people whose birthdays are forgotten. Come to think of it, Birthdays are just merely a day which you come into this wear with the ''birthday suit''. Thinking deep does open up the mind.Besides, even if i celebrated it, it would have to be a silent one. Well, I won't be expecting anything this year as I noticed a trend that as a person gets older, the presents get smaller and lesser.

ps: the lesser friends a person has, the chances of getting a present are slim...

pps: Since I hardly have much close friends, i doubt so...Ever wondered if your 'close' friends are really that close? It depends on whether they can remember minor details about you. Sad to say, I must had been quite a disappointment as one.
~Look out for my new blogskin and pls tag...
I am gettin jealous at the others who have frequent taggers...

Saturday update...

2006-09-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

Havent been bloggin for quite awhile... Coz i haven't collected much events tat are worth writing about...
last Sunday
The day we all went thru another rounds of taoist rites for grandma... It was sad and gloomy. Although grandma passed away not long ago, the adults cried...
I juz couldn't cry... Was I cold-hearted again? I juz didn't had the feel to cry, somehow, I believe tat grandma wouldn't want ask to cry and be depressed over her. The next day was my physics practical exams and i didn't had time to study. Still, i didn't tell my parents for i didn't want to be left at home after dinner... in e end, i still was left at home...
Monday
Practical was fairly easy. Except the graph part tat i assumed was a straight line graph... Turns out to be a curve after Mr Tan looked at my paper and corrected me. I redrew my graph in a hurry... So much for not reading the instructions clearly... Instructions are very vital. Becoz of that , my honest mistake made me failed chem last yr when i didn't realise tat i had two pages missin.
Tuesday
Nothin much in particular... juz normal lessons
Wednesday
Had bio practical. It was kinda strange as we were given 4 samples of blood plasma, saliva, urine and bile and had to test to find out which is which. The saliva part was tricky, however, a genius like me thought out of the idea of using my saliva to compare the results. Hence, I spitted my saliva into the test-tube when the examiner was not lookin and tested it.
After the practical, we had a compre test which i cleared within 45mins as it was damn easy.
Thursday
Teachers' day... Was kinda lame. Had to listen to dedications and tat rainy mornin. It was freezing cold. So, i had a jacket on which seem rather awkward as there are only few ppl who wore them. Next, we had to attend lessons by the lower secs. It was supposed to b 2 lessons. However, due to time constraints, it was reduced to one. Initially, i wanted to visit 2-1 for an Arts lesson which i dearly missed ARt and 2-3 for jap class. I chose the latter as i gave my word to support my jrs.
It was a mistake... Hardly learnt anything in the short period of time. Worst of all, i left my umbrella in the panel rm... ( i suppose its gone for good now)
After the celebrations, i was too tired tat i went home to rest, rather than stickin to the original plan of visitin my pri sch with old frens. Kinda guilty bout it...
Friday
Nothing much in particular... Juz merely hurt myself in Aikido practice. Got locked in the wrists many times during practice and sensei's lock was excruiating... My left wrist is kinda weakened...

Well, tats all for now...

A lil friday update...

2006-08-18T16:02:00.000+08:00

Its been quite some time since i last blogged. Well, at least there are some ppl who tagged at my blog... finally...
Haiz.... Ytd as a rather hectic day, aka Maths DAY... Had maths during lessons, maths asap, maths tuition n finally... Maths Hwk...
Today, i had a chem test on organic chem... It was ok... except tat the acrylic acid messed with my head... A rather funny chemical eqn tat seems to be different from e alkyl acids. I bet the last page will kill me...
Next, Chinese lesson was a breeze... I no longer have to study it... therefore, i went to disturb my fellow nervous classmates who were uptight about the English Orals. Gee... I don't c the need to study for orals. All u nid is juz a keen sense of observation, a high level of intellectual thinking and of course... ArtIcuLate reading...
School ended at 1245pm. I ran home for lunch, had a quick washup and ran back to school for oral.
Oral was easy... except tat i hate e waitin time. As time passes, the more tense i felt. Hence, i let off steam by foolin around with my classmates tat were filled with anxiety. Huiwen and Stella were so tense tat they were huggin the plastic chairs... After which, they 'hit' me... It was a win-win situation. One, its good for my aching muscles... (although being thrown at Aikido is much relaxing). Two, they feel much better... ( i suppose...)
However, i muz admit tat Huiwen's future husband is gonna be badly abused... She packs a powerful punch... Whereas... Stella's were like soft little taps on the shoulder... :p ( wat can u expect from a chubby fruity panda? lol)
Well, everything was fine for oral except the final segment.... tat's when my mind came blank...

Ok, tats all for now as i take a quick nap to prepare for tonite's trainin...

National Day

2006-08-10T11:44:00.000+08:00

Slept till 12pm... Ahhhz... Haven't had such a gd rest for such a long time. My eyebags are now gone.
Woke up, did some stretching and practice a bit rolling.
Had lunch, yun tun mein... lolz (from the stall at Jurong West 5 tou market)

After which, I went out with my family to Wisma Atria to shop for clothes, I was out growing my old clothes and its time to get a new wardrobe. Went to EsPrit De Corp, tried on lots of clothes under mum's careful observation.
It was a mad rush for time. Mum chose many clothes that I had to secretly smuggle them alll to the changing room and try them on.
Bought a few jeans, new jacket, belt, t-shirts and shirts to cover e t-shirts.
COst:??? .... $444.40, how accurate... after discount.

Then, I had dinner at FOod republic, Ate paper prata, the famous hokkien mee, some dim sum and desert... Gorged myself... hahz

After dinner, we went home, as my sis somehow cannot adapt to eating outside food. Watched e parade... almost near e ending... :P

Somehow, later at night, we ended up at KK hospital for women and children because my sis had a fungal infection. While waitin to see e doc, i wandered around... Fascinated by the different types of vending machines available. I was bored, so i fed myself with snacks...

After the diagnosis and collecting her med, it was nearly 12am. to think tat we spent nearly 3hrs?!

I was stilll hungry, so we went to bukit timah to eat at boon tong kee. Had porridge, half a chicken, raw fish , tofu and of course... yam pudding... Gee, i sure am stuffed...

After e meal, we went home and i simply popped into bed... too tired to blog...

A lil Fri Thought to My pool bank...

2006-08-04T16:02:00.000+08:00

Alot of things happened today...
First, I had my e-maths common test tis morning... ( no comments)
Next, I went to the Chem Lab for practical. (blah blah... usual CheMystery stuff)

Next, on the way out of the lab, the wet zip-bloc bag that I used to store my test-tubes slipped... n CRASHED!!! 3 out of 3 of my test-tubes broke... Darn, breakage= $$$

Went for recess... Then went to the AVA room for a chinese ''Karaoke'' session that stink...
I didn't had any practice and I juz got e song frm ZC... Had to handle the AV technical stuff, lots of people kept on calling me for help... Can't have a bit of my own personal space to practice... (humph...)

Stella was kinda funny... (ps: sorry for wat i said)
She connected the wires from the laptop to.... NOTHING at ALL!!!
Unfortunately, I didn't know that she connected them... So, i muttered," who's the idiot who connected the wires?!'' upon remedyin the problem.

Time to sing... Strangely, the mic doesn't seem to magnify my voice and that i seem kinda tone-deaf... Well, I ain't musically-inclined after all... Wat a disaster... I took off my spec as they seem to be weighin tons on my nose...

After the dreadful singin, we went back to class, only to hear shocking news... Mr Hoe is NO LONGER OUR FORM-TEACHER!!! Instead, Ms Anna Koh took over... To think that Mr Hoe can still joke about it... snivel... sob... Our class is like an orphan who is now under the care of foster parent , Ms Koh.

Next, we received our CCA form... WTH!!! i got a C5, n so many details are left out...
Well, I am gonna dig up wateva i can find and put them in. IF I still can't get an A2, 20 pts... I won't be back next yr to help out... Hasta La Vista BoTaK!!! ( no offence... juz in case)

Well, its a long day... Tonite, I am gonna throw some1 at Aikido again... mayb vice versa... I m so TIRED...

Juz a Quick summary of wat i did...

2006-07-30T20:51:00.000+08:00

Thurs: Attempted Australian Maths Competition... Seems easy at first... however, as it goes on... AHHH!!!!

I would rather call Thurs a Maths Day. Faced maths nearly e while day. 3 periods of maths, maths quiz n maths tui... AHHH!!! Thought till my brain hurts...

Fri: Luckily no cca or i would collapse. Went to JP after Sch for lunch. Ate BentoBox with Khai... I gobbled down my unagi rice bowl.. Still felt hungry... AFter which, when walking around...

Walkin aids digestion... My eye caught something on e way...

WOW!!! Saw Bleach: Heat the Soul3... Couldn' resist... Bought it down.

Went home, played with it... Smashin!!! Khai saw Onimusha...

In the end, he bought it days after.

NIght fell, went for AIkiDo lesson. Got a weapons class... (very exhausive)

INstructor made us practice swingin our bokkens 250 TIMES in a ROW!!!

Arms sore... Felt good...

Sat: Had Chem class in the morning... damn tired... Calister saBO-ED me... told me lesson at 10 when it was supposed to be at 1030... Nothin much happened... Went home, tui... Then went to cous's house. Paid respects to grandma and then let my keyboard fire awaY!!!

Sun: Morning, had tui... (maths again...)

Afternn, went to JE library for chinese project... So stressed up when i saw lots of JSS students studyin there... :p

I can't study at a library... mY ideal place is my room...

Had lunch, at KOPItiam... had a stone bowl Korean mixed rice...

Spent e day thinkin bout lyrics... Nothin much came out...

Next... Went home n ..... snooze...

Wet Wednesday

2006-07-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

Skipped my NApFA retest today... Somehow i went down with a cold at the physics lab. Perhaps its a blessing in disguise despite the fact that my nose kept on running e moment I was home.
I took a double dose of LEMSIP, then had my lunch and shower before i went to bed...
Woke at arnd 6pm, nose seems better...
However, it went on dripping soon after...
Could hardly breathe... Looks like I gotta have an early night... Tml got AMC... Lucky...
AT least can skip 2.4km run... Hahaz... Looks like i gotta burn some fat during the weekends and get rdy to run on monday.

ps: wanna c a magical reaction? forget abra kadabra... juz say Hyun Bin to QP and she instantly blushes... talk about human reaction... haha

Racial Harmony Day

2006-07-21T16:33:00.000+08:00

Finally got some pics, courtesy of chailing...
Well, Racial Harmony Day was kinda fun. Every1 was fully dressed up in all sorts of vibrant colours. Our class even won top prize...

To Alan: I ain't despicable nor am I abominable... lolz, I know you are a bit sore about the chain of winners. 1-5,2-5,3-5 n then... 4-4! hahaz. Relax, the prize is a lame mini bar of snickers...
(i hate peanuts and chocolates...)

To conclude, nothing much happened...

Today, my team of oswin, mj and yong yuan went thru 'vigorous' trainin under Mr Stanley Tan.
We were having a hell of a time connecting circuits that seems like child's play.
Before that, to those who were caught in the dust generated from a running yong yuan n me, we were simply rushing to Mac for lunch.
We had to get back by 1.30pm. therfore, we ate crazily. I ate at a speed of an avg of 3 french fries per sec... hahaz

After which, we ate somemore... At the explorers' farewell party where we recieved training...
Mr YY, a.k.a freeloader helped himelf to e food... lolz

To conclude, nothing else happened. Except i m gonna have some trouble tonite.
My new belt is frick'in long. Can't seem to tie it properly... It looks like a pair of two long feelers...

Kinda stressed... Gonna throw some1 tonite... Mwa HAHA!!!

THe aftermath 2

2006-07-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

The days passed, as we took part in the taoist rites for my grandmother to go in peace.
Somehow, e relatives said that grandma's face seem to smile upon seein the family being united.
On sun, it was e day of cremation and a teary goodbye.
Every1 cried, i couldn't...
Perhaps there's some lag in me, my tears juz couldn't help fallin down my cheeks once we get out of the crematorium. Well, at least tat proved that my heart wasn't cold. For a moment, I was thinking wat kind of a monster i was.
To conclude: Grandma lives forever in my heart, e memories r prove of her existence and how she had left an imprint into my life. Its juz that her physical form no longer exists, but i could still feel her presence... I will miss e dumplings she used to made, for you cant buy a similar copy anywhere.

I know that today is racial harmony day, but it is my responsibility to conclude this entry. Hencefore, i shall write about racial harmony tml...

~DEarly MissEd, 1809...

The Aftermath Part1...

2006-07-13T20:05:00.000+08:00

Its been a week since Grandma passed away on the 5th at time 1809.
I only cried 2 times in grieve. Once, on her deathbed. 2nd, on the day we cremate her.
Kinda feelin bad for not cryin much. Compared to my family, they all cried more than me.
Perhaps my tear ducts are inactive...
It was the day when i had my MT oral exam... I kinda got nervous or rather, worried about matters at e hospital. I had a strange feelin e night before that something is bound to happen.
I only got hold of matters once i reached home. My mum called n rushed me to take a cab down to Gleaneagles.
Filled with anxiety that I would be too late, I took a cab down. Muttering a silent prayer that my grandma would last.
As i reached e hospital, e ward was filled with an aura of sadness. Grandma was on the verge of death. Her eyes were filled with yellow pus as she breathe deeply, gasping in lots of air despite e help of life-supporting equipment at max lvl.
She was fightin real hard... But... we had to end her suffering... It was juz too painful to let her go on. Therefore, her life-supporting equipments were removed.
Despite, she held on dearly for her life. She was reluctant to go. She was a good fighter...
I knew why she refused to leave. She wanted to see my sister, but tat ignorant girl was far from reach. At last, she left without taking a last look at my sister.
My head ached... It was too hard a blow for I had never lost any1 before...
For e next few days, i had to attend to her funeral matters. I only took a lil nap per day as i was on e night shift.
Sadly, i muz admit that i m startin to miss sch then...

~ continued on part 2

The ''Battle''

2006-07-03T13:43:00.000+08:00

Went to Aikido Shinju Kai HQ on sun morning at 0830 hrs.
Was e first few to arrive. Had nothin to do, so i walked around. Meanwhile, I saw some fellow white belts hydrating themselves with ice cool 100pluses. Really regretted not hydratin myself, coz i was like a fish out of water at halfway thru e grading.
0900hrs- I registered... (2nd person to register out of e 52 candidates)
Got a lame number... No. 6!
0900-0930hrs- Did warm ups, e stupid instructer with a GurKha label on his dogi came on pickin on me...
0930hrs-Gradin begins n e panel of judges arrive. My sensei was 1 of them... (thankfully)
0930-0950hrs- Did Front n back rolls and e stupid 'duck' walk. Performed Katatedori Ikkyo Aihanmi, Shomenuchi Ikkyo Aihanmi, Katatedori Shihonage Aihanmi, Katatedori Iriminage (aihanmi n gyaku), shomenuchi iriminage ,jiyuwaza n finally kokyuho...
So much things to do, my stupid partner took things too seriously, flung me too hard till i got muddleheaded...
He wants war, he gets it...
When i came to my turn, i flung him so hard till his belt came loose.... (hahahz)

At e end of e day, I suffered some bruises and some scratches due to friction...
Well, hope i collect my new belt on Fri...

Way of the Aikidoka...

2006-06-30T15:04:00.000+08:00

Holidays out, School's in!
Tis term, we r introduced to a e-learning portal by asknlearn.com.
The school forum is quite basic, dunno y the school paid an undisclosed 5 figure sum for it. Worst of all, hardly any1 writes in e forum. I spotted a mistake where doing the kinetic particle theory quiz and wrote it at the chemistry board. Darnz... Mr Hoe replied and even announced to the whole class that it seems only 1 person went to the forum. Even e ppl from 4-3 found out about wat i wrote... Leonard (Stupid BaKA!!!), kept on critising my threads. WHat a guy with nothin to do at all...

Way of the aikidoka~
Today's Friday, n that means trainin tonite. I found out frm lots of ppl tat usually people take the blue belt exam after 6 months. (although 3 months is the min requirement)
I m gonna prove it to all those who laughed and mocked at me that with determination and hardwork, i can pass the blue belt exam. I do not want to aim for juz a pass, I wan to even skip a grade.
Therefore, after tonite's trainin, i m gonna go for a morning trainin at HQ from 9-10.30 and a late afternn one at Bukit Timah CC frm 5-6.30. That means, I m gonna get a tough 5hrs worth of trainin before my grading. Unfortunately, I can't think of a way to clean up my Gi in time. Looks like i gotta bear with a smelly Gi...
My grading on Sun is gonna be from 9am-11 plus. Well, hope my muscles won't ache from too much trainin. The pain is nothing as long as my efforts pay off.
Once i get a blue gold, i can slacken a bit and conc fully for the O lvls...
Yawn~ gotta take a bit of an afternn nap before i prepare for my tough trainins ahead...
FOrtunately, Tis mon is a holiday... (recovering day)
Hahaz...
ps: I was wrngly banded!!! Ms CHan owes me 2marks n she forgot to add them ( tat would boost my 56 to a 58).
.'. I m stucked with Ms Phua's class... Awww.... My ears hurt
Pps: I lied about being n2 about her lesson...

Last entry for e month...

2006-06-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

Perhaps tis could be my last entry for tis month. Today, granny is still in the ICU under quaratine. She came in contact with some virus in there while she was recoverin. So, basically, she back in there...
My thoughts ran wild today. Haven't seen my cousins in person for a long time. I miss playin Magic: The Gathering. Feels so rusty... Looks like e days of fun are over.
I realised e importance of my paternal grandmother. Without her, there would be no family gatherings. She's e reason y e family remains united. I can't bear to see if the every1 going their own paths should granny would'nt be arnd...
In life, I learnt about 2 common trends. One, when u r young, u r spoilt with lots of big presents during ur bdays n x'mas. However, as u age, they get smaller n lesser. THe other trend is, since young, u have frequent gatherings n played alot with ur cousins. However, as u age, u find each other driftin apart...
Lately, I have been feelin blue... N a lil unfit... Usually, during aikido lessons, I would be burstin of energy n full of stamina. However, recently, I nearly puked during trainin. I spun too fast when it came to frontal rolls. Felt e blood rush to my head, felt giddy n my intestines jumbled around. My grading is coming on e 2nd of July. Hope i get to skip a belt...
Well, i m gettin tired. Still gonna rush wif my hmwk... So tats all folks...

Feelin e blues...

2006-06-18T03:26:00.000+08:00

Kinda feelin depressed for tis whole holidays. Can't get decent time off to go on e net n do wateva i want. I always have to go real early in e morning to 3plus juz to do my stuff. I m becoming a nocturnal creature of the dark or perhaps Dracula...
Ain't feelin tat well, perhaps due to lack of substantial sleep... My panda eyebags are poofing out.
The days tat pass by are so boring... Hardly much people had visited my blog (i think, coz so few ppl wrote in e cbox to proof their exixtence...). Well, y the hE11 and i writing for when no1 appreciates?
Still stucked on my piling homework... Dun wanna continue playin taichi with the teachers... I m gonna wake up at 9 later to do my Chinese Tuition hmk...
Aikido is a bummer... i dun even noe whether i made e right choice or not... The basic criteria for a aikidoka to take e blue belt exam is at least 3 months or 20 lessons. However, I had fewer than those but fufilled e 3months. Sadly, no1 except me had been daring enough to go for gradin. They usually took 6 months be4 they are rdy. Am i making e right choice? Or i m sendin myself to e road of oblivion?
At first, I felt confident. I was able to execute Ikkyo, Sankyo, Jiyuwaza, Backroll, Front roll and tenchi-nage. However, the previous Friday's trainin shocked me. I forgotten some of e moves within a week. Am i fully prepared? As the grading date, 2nd July, slowly makes its way, I m gettin nervous day by day...Will I be able to handle it?

What I m goin to do on thurs e 15th...

2006-06-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

As soon as i awaken from my deep slumber (i won't consider it deep... i slp onli bout 5hrs), i have to prepare for physics tuition. wat is e use of hols when u have to wake up early at 8am?!
After which, i m gonna go out n cut my hair... It looks like a coconut with 2 aeroplane wings that even extra hard Gatsby wax cannot help lessen e pain... I rather have a coconut than one with 2 wings...Hair can b such a big prob... who cares? at least no 1 will laugh when its time for NS. That will be a good time to practice the fact tat all people r equal. Hahz!
Once i got my perfectly flawless round hair, i will then proceed back home for a shower and to spike things up... (u noe wat i mean, if not, treat it as thou an atomic bomb fell on my head... got e picture?)
Next, i will go with my dad to Gleaneagles Hospital where Granny is lyin in bed at e ICU ward.
Hopefully my presence will lessen some of her pain. ( I m' guilty of nt visitin her for 5days straight)
I rmb tat on my first visit, i saw her lyin in pain, with tubes inserted into her. She couldn't talk, for she had a large (perhaps pvc?) pipe inserted down her throat. Her head, which used to be covered by a fine crop of hair were reduced to a balding patches of snowy silk. Her nails seem lightly attached tat a mere pull would dis-attach them. They were surrounded with blood.
I looked at her then, cupping her right palm with my fingers, tryin to soothe her sufferin n to give her e strength to fight on...
Her index finger twitched, motioning me to come closer. She wanted to talk, bt she can't...
INstead, she drew something on my palm. It felt like circles. I couldn't decipher them.
Thankfully, my godma (aka aunt) was around n after much guessing, we came to a conclusion...
Tat msg tat my granny wanted to convey wasn't as complicated as i thought. It was a picture of an orange...
Orange?! we went thru so much juz for her to tell us about oranges?! well, she wanted to say e oranges tat granpa bought for her days ago was very sweet...
Ok, Enough bout tis, its making me too emotional...
I can't write anymore...

Official Launch

2006-06-12T01:02:00.000+08:00

Well, i guess after much hard work, i finally created a proper one n onli unique blogskin.
To all those who found out my blog: Congrats... PLs Leave a Msg In e C box! Thanks
For all those who wish to tag me, at least notify me.
For all those who wants me to tag them, do e same as e above.
~thks once again for ur co-operation.

Now, i shall begin my official entry....

Hmmm... Can't think of wat to write...
Well, you cant blame me as i m stucked a home for e past few days like a caged bird.
Seriously, i m envious of alot of people who have exciting lives and friendships.
I m juz a mere loner or perhaps wat one would call an introvert.
If u were me, and found it hard to make friends due to lack of common interests or tat e personality doesn't click, wat would u do?
Let's say u wanna noe some1, u can't juz go up there and say,'' hey, U r going to be my friend.''
Isn't tat freakin odd?
Meanwhile, as i stay cooped up in my 'bird cage', perhaps some of u (i hope... i dunno whether any1 reads wat i write...) could try enlightening me or express ur views? thanks...

First Phase- Completed!

2006-06-05T00:57:00.000+08:00

I finally got the number of pixel heights n width right n i had edited the pic. HOwever, any1 noe how to make my backgrnd black? haiz...

First Post

2006-05-19T16:58:00.000+08:00

After many failed attempts of creating a blog, here i m, not giving up... I m gonna make the best blog tat i could ever make!